this is a conversation i just had with doug. every couple of months, it always comes back to doug. i'd link back to all my other entries about him but...lazy. to summarize, i met doug when he was going out with my friend. we've never actually hooked up, but there's always been a lot of sexual tension between us. i'm doing everything i can do avoid this soc paper so i thought i'd talk to him tonight.
DPrinceCharmingR (9:14:38 PM): its nice to know you dont hate me
DPrinceCharmingR (9:14:38 PM): :)
theglitterfades0 (9:14:45 PM): why would i hate you?
DPrinceCharmingR (9:15:28 PM): i dont know i thought you did for the longest time
theglitterfades0 (9:15:43 PM): really? why?
DPrinceCharmingR (9:16:02 PM): i think it had something to do with the you and me hookiing up thing but i never got why
theglitterfades0 (9:16:52 PM): yeah, or lack thereof. i tihnk i was pissed at you for a while for something you said to tasha, but i never hated you
DPrinceCharmingR (9:17:13 PM): hmm
DPrinceCharmingR (9:17:24 PM): why did we never hook up?
theglitterfades0 (9:17:35 PM): cause i was a lameass?
DPrinceCharmingR (9:17:47 PM): i really wanted to too
theglitterfades0 (9:17:58 PM): really? hm.
DPrinceCharmingR (9:18:10 PM): i just didnt want to think that you werent going to go through with it
theglitterfades0 (9:18:32 PM): what do you mean?
DPrinceCharmingR (9:19:15 PM): well you were kinda hesitant about doing something
theglitterfades0 (9:19:37 PM): yeah. self-consciousness
DPrinceCharmingR (9:19:48 PM): yeah i think that was it
DPrinceCharmingR (9:20:12 PM): but im sure your over that now right
theglitterfades0 (9:20:34 PM): yeah, actually, i am
DPrinceCharmingR (9:20:54 PM): cool
DPrinceCharmingR (9:21:02 PM): so how over it are you
theglitterfades0 (9:22:36 PM): how over it am i? jesus, i dunno. um...pretty fucking over it?
DPrinceCharmingR (9:22:57 PM): are you hooking up all the time or what
theglitterfades0 (9:23:40 PM): yeah, sorta. i was on a bit of a drought until a few weeks ago but that's behind me now
DPrinceCharmingR (9:25:41 PM): are you having sex?
theglitterfades0 (9:26:17 PM): why do our conversations always come back to this? no, i'm still a silly little virgin
DPrinceCharmingR (9:26:58 PM): i dont know why they always do
DPrinceCharmingR (9:27:43 PM): because i guess ive always been attracted to you and the interest in you kinda pops back up now and then and im just wondering
DPrinceCharmingR (9:27:45 PM): i dont know
DPrinceCharmingR (9:28:11 PM): if i could explain a human being and their persona
DPrinceCharmingR (9:28:16 PM): id be rich
theglitterfades0 (9:28:21 PM): yeah yeah
yeah. whatever. doug. hm. i'm going munchie crazy since i can't smoke because of this fucking cough. i'm snacking on peaches (mmm) and popcorn (mmmmm) and it's a surprisingly marvelous combination. unfortunately, i'm on my last can of peaches so i'll have to start in on the mandarin oranges.
i know this paper is going to get done. i just don't know why. or how. or when. hum.
actually, i think i'm eating so much because i'm anxious about just about every aspect of my life. school: no desire to do work. no desire to fail out either. can't find balance. work: getting no hours, by my request, have no money. money: will owe lots within a month. will not have much.
i'm sick of venting. will nap. or something. goodbye.