This dream I had last night of you was so perfect. You gave me a chance to explain, and to tell you how much you hurt me, to see the look on your face when you realized it hurts to hurt somebody. I woke up smiling, literally, so thrilled to have some closure, so pleased that I was the one who got to say no, that I wasn't even disappointed when I woke up enough to get that it wasn't real. That dream is the closest I will ever get, but it was real enough. I'll take my solace where I can get it, so seldom are we allowed that.