I want to remember:
crying uncontrollably for three hours and nobody knowing
that tonight happened because i wanted it to
that the more people know, the more power they have over you
that it is possible to destroy a person and get off scot free
that i asked kristie to record the show for me and she sacrificed her night that i may experience it. people will provide what you want if you ask. friends will provide what you need without any verbal communication whatsoever.