I feel unnecessarily anxious.
I didn't want to go to the lake anyway, but I wanted to hang out with Esp and Joanna so I was going to go and get a tan and...
nope.
i shouldn't be upset that taylor and matt invited themselves, but i'm not friends with them and i really don't have a desire to be friends with them. and i knew when joanna asked last week if it was just going to be the three of us and i said i hoped so that it wasn't going to be.
the lake would have been shit for my self-esteem anyway.
*depressed*