I'm pissed at him for being so wimpy. I'm pissed at him for making me feel guilty. I'm pissed at me for feeling guilty. I'm pissed at me for being pissed at him for making me feel guilty. Gaah! Cycles!
2001-05-02 at 4:03 p.m.

Petev1982 (8:51:52 PM): hi

Petev1982 (8:51:53 PM): bye

Kute Koala (8:52:00 PM): wait, i need to talk to you

Auto response from Petev1982 (8:52:00 PM): I have gone to the move beautiful place in the world........................ Mmmm dennys!

Kute Koala (8:52:05 PM): goddammit

Petev1982 (8:52:19 PM): o what?

Petev1982 (8:52:29 PM): your lucky i checked i am out the door

Petev1982 (8:52:31 PM): whats up?

Kute Koala (8:52:33 PM): katie has to come with us on saturday postprom.

Kute Koala (8:52:39 PM): my mom's insisting.

Petev1982 (8:52:50 PM): i already said ok

Kute Koala (8:53:25 PM): yeah, but did you find out any more details so that i can tell katie where we're going to see if it's ok with her?

Petev1982 (8:54:08 PM): listen if its not ok with either of you you can do your own thing if that is what you want

Kute Koala (8:54:13 PM): ok

Petev1982 (8:54:16 PM): later

Kute Koala (8:54:19 PM): have fun

Petev1982 (10:44:13 PM): we need to talk

Kute Koala (10:44:25 PM): ok

Kute Koala (10:44:31 PM): but i haveto sleep in 10 minutes

Petev1982 (10:44:35 PM): thats fine

Petev1982 (10:45:31 PM): ok

Petev1982 (10:45:52 PM): You dont sound very excited about prom, do you not want to go?

Kute Koala (10:46:06 PM): i told you a long time ago i'm not a prom person

Petev1982 (10:46:52 PM): ah

Petev1982 (10:47:52 PM): well i picked you over 3 other girls who asked me

Kute Koala (10:48:24 PM): what am i supposed to say to that

Kute Koala (10:48:27 PM): thanks?

Petev1982 (10:48:35 PM): i dont know

Petev1982 (10:48:46 PM): its not that your not excited

Petev1982 (10:49:09 PM): its like, i dunno, your treating me like i would treat ben cogan

Petev1982 (10:49:55 PM): and i am scared to like talk to you about it, because i am afraid you will get mad at me

Kute Koala (10:50:11 PM): i just think you're being way uptight about the whole katie thing

Petev1982 (10:50:24 PM): how many times do i have to say you can take her

Kute Koala (10:50:32 PM): it was a bit of a struggle

Petev1982 (10:50:47 PM): morgan i am taking you to prom not katie

Kute Koala (10:51:07 PM): you keep saying that, but that has nothing to do with anything

Petev1982 (10:51:14 PM): ya it does

Petev1982 (10:51:39 PM): i dont have to ok places we are going with katie, i mean i really like katie and all but this is like being thrown on me at the last moment

Petev1982 (10:52:04 PM): beside i shouldnt be put in this position

Kute Koala (10:52:22 PM): what position are you beingput in?

Kute Koala (10:52:26 PM): i don't undersatnd what's so hard about this

Petev1982 (10:52:37 PM): I am not going to make your descions for you, whatever you want to do is ok because i dotn want to fuck up our friendship

Kute Koala (10:52:49 PM): you'r emaking this a much bigger deal that it is

Petev1982 (10:53:12 PM): i know we disagree on this

Kute Koala (10:53:23 PM): but what position are you being put in?

Petev1982 (10:53:52 PM): i feel like you dont even want to hange with me you are just looking foward to the bigger better party with a bunch of cute boys and katie

Petev1982 (10:54:57 PM): now i do understand you wont know anyone and your worried about it

Petev1982 (10:55:35 PM): but i cant control who you will know just that i wont duck out and ditch you and not introduce you to people

Kute Koala (10:56:17 PM): well, yeah, i'd like to have fun with katie that night. and i'd rather go to a bigger party than a smaller party with people i don't know where i'm going to be sitting in the corner all night and not have any fun. if going somewhere with katie means i'd be hanging out with people i know, then yeah, that's what i want to do.

Petev1982 (10:57:03 PM): I have no clue where we are going afterward, and if the party sucks we will steal some beers and go somewhere else

Petev1982 (10:57:17 PM): the guy i was going to be with decided to cancel

Kute Koala (10:57:18 PM): are jen and jordan going with after?

Petev1982 (10:57:24 PM): as far as i know

Petev1982 (10:57:31 PM): sense we are their ride

Kute Koala (10:59:10 PM): i just need to know what's going to happen after prom before prom for safety issues

Kute Koala (10:59:28 PM): i dont' want to get myself into a situation i can't get out of

Petev1982 (10:59:35 PM): Morgan my dad is drving us and body guarding, i think that gets the saffest it can get

Petev1982 (11:00:04 PM): And i would never put you in a position that i couldnt get you safely home

Kute Koala (11:01:33 PM): well, whatever

Kute Koala (11:01:35 PM): i'll deal with it

Petev1982 (11:01:41 PM): deal with what?

Petev1982 (11:01:50 PM): I dont see how you are geting cheated

Kute Koala (11:01:53 PM): whatever happens that night

Kute Koala (11:02:04 PM): when did getting cheated get into this?

Petev1982 (11:02:44 PM): I thought you meant by whatever that you were geting cheated

Kute Koala (11:02:59 PM): i have no idea what you're talking about

Petev1982 (11:03:22 PM): Maybe i have just been misunderstanding this from the begining

Kute Koala (11:03:37 PM): misunderstanding what?

Petev1982 (11:03:52 PM): if i knew then i wouldnt be misunderstanding now would i :-0

Petev1982 (11:03:56 PM): :-)

Petev1982 (11:03:58 PM): *

Kute Koala (11:04:04 PM): what are you talking about?

Petev1982 (11:04:48 PM): I thought you were just going because you thought you were doing me a favor and you didnt want to hange out afterward and you just wanted to go meet cute boys and hange with your best friend

Kute Koala (11:05:10 PM): well, that's half true

Petev1982 (11:05:16 PM): wonderful

Petev1982 (11:05:24 PM): at least i am not insane

Kute Koala (11:05:41 PM): i don't want to meet cute boys

Petev1982 (11:05:48 PM): sure you do

Petev1982 (11:06:21 PM): but thats ok i guess

Petev1982 (11:12:27 PM): If you dont want to go the sooner you tell me the better, i really thought part of you wanted to go

Kute Koala (11:12:56 PM): peter, i'm not going to back out on you

Petev1982 (11:13:49 PM): good

Kute Koala signed off at 11:25:38 PM.

Ok when i was sober i didnt see it as i do now. Perhaps i was over analyizing everything. I should not only know you are your own person and even though i am taking you to prom doesnt mean i get you for the evening but actually understand it and believe it..... i think before i knew it... but didnt understandt or believe it.

I think now I do, but i do however think some of the things you said about katie coming repidtively was a little rude, even though its your right, it hurt my feelings.

I dont know, it just made me feel insignificant.

I dont know if its supposed to hurt my feelings, but it did.

So I am sorry I flipped out on you, maybe its just guy PMS.

Do you know something?

We got to dennys and they forgot about us! their were like 4 people there and they totally forgot about our order... after 45 minutes I was all " um miss, excuse me" they were all.... we are so sorry and we got half off diner, but still that sucked! so that is why i got home so late.

In adition to that we almost died on the way there because the construction people decided to put cones randomly all over 44... serious they had like all the lanes randomly filled with cones, it was the worst detour ever, I practically almost got ran off the road with traffic cones... I ended up running one over in efforts of avoiding a score more.

Well, i hope that helped show you where I am coming from.

I think i know where your coming from, and I might feel the same way in your shoes but I just dont see my self doing that.

But people are allowed to disagree

Peter

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Hi. Morgan, 27, of Santa Barbara, CA. I am a hypocritical admirer of rhetoric (when it is my own) and an observer of literary trends. A secret: I don't take anything very seriously, and that includes myself.