i had a dream last night. about travis. i've never met the boy. i'm a freak. i'll have to have katie introduce us. once i get the nerve to talk to her again. ack.
am i antisocial? do i fear people? what is wrong with me? i'm not friendly. i'm just not. how is this going to fuck me over when i'm older? i'm never going to meet guys. they have to meet me. gaa. i should go throw up. i ate too much tonight. i'm seriously fucked up. but i made pumpkin bread and it turned out yummy.
i want to talk to travis. i'm falling in like with my dream boy. sigh. i just want someone to cuddle with and to kiss and to hold me. like cary.
i talked to cary today. she made me happier. but i'm still not happy. shit. nothing's good enough for me.
I'M A FUCKING SPOILED BRAT.