Desperation
14 May 2009 at 3:04 pm

As inspired by

I wish, I hope, I bargain. If this happens, I will do this. If I can stay awake through this shift, I will sleep in tomorrow. If I can run one more block, I will stop at the end. If he will call me, I will stop being such a crazygirl.

When I was very young and didn't understand that what I was doing was masturbating, it elicited feelings of extreme guilt and shame. I would bargain with God (because I was in Christian school) that I would stop doing that if he would help me pass this test, endure an awkward social experiment, or whathaveyou.

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Hi. Morgan, 27, of Santa Barbara, CA. I am a hypocritical admirer of rhetoric (when it is my own) and an observer of literary trends. A secret: I don't take anything very seriously, and that includes myself.