i just had an incredibly satisfying milkshake. mmm. most delicious. watching she's out of control. tony danza is really cute in this movie, and the first time i saw it the daughter was really pretty but shes' not so much anymore. hm.
i talked to jen ... oh my god, i forgot her last name. jen from va...jen who lived across from me...jen whose aim is expat .... gaaaaaa! what is it!!! i can picture her handwriting and everything! ok, i have to look this up. stearns! oh my god, i thought i was going to go insane. that's terrible...this girl i'm actually pretty close to, despite the fact we didn't really get along at school. jennifer stearns. we're wildly alike. huge procrastinators, huge messes, way selfish, way lazy, way mean. fun stuff. she's at college already: oklahoma state university. she says it's way fun. lucky bitch; she doesn't have a roommate. sigh.
i just want to be at college already. i was looking at the princeton review website, which gives some helpful and amusing information about adjusting and stuff, and i'm feeling ok about it, but still. i just want to be there and know how it's going to be instead of thinking how it's going to be. i have a bad habit of creating scenarios in my head an often enough, they are totally false but when things aren't what i expect, i get really nervous and it takes me longer to get used to it than if i were jsut thrown into a situation. if i don't have time to contemplate how terrible or how great it could be, i don't have time to be let down. expectations are bad! bad!
time for chai and then bed. maybe. i think i'm supposed to work from 8-5 tomorrow, but i'm not for sure because april called me in but didn't write it on the main schedule and i'm always nervous when i show up and it's not written down. not that it's that big of a deal, i would just leave, but it'd be sort of embarassing and i have this deal with being on top of things. but, as discussed in earlier entries, april is a very large ditz and forgets things. today, for example, she forgot that amber baker, who's been here as long as i have to the day, can do cashwrap even though she was clearly scheduled for it. GAAA! SHE IS SUCH A DITZ!!!!!
but anyway. i'm not tired even though i got minimal amounts of sleep last night and haven't napped at all. to bed.